Working through it all!

Today has been a tough day...I had to do the distribution and wow I forgot how much I hated it!

I have not worked out in four days and I am ready to get started AGAIN. and get back on my eating schedule that works and easy to do...we will see. I know I can do it I have to make the time. to ME! Make it happen 20 pounds to lose and tone and firm my body that I (& John) loves.

Life is rough and we are working though it all to make it and do the things we want, see the things we want and just be who we want with out all the stress of doing it all.

That is it for today :) - Rachel

Family Life...

Life is a growing process; Family life takes compromise.
I remember growing up and trying to figure out where I fit in the world and how I fit in the Family. Sometimes I thought I was lucky because I only had one set of parents to deal with and sometimes I thought I got the short end of the stick because I only had one set of parents to deal with.

I do not know that is better - but what I do know that my Mom and Dad loved me and still love my no matter what. They have and will be mad at me for things they may not agree with, but they always try to be there for me the best they can.

I can recall a time when I did not talk to my parents to months at a time. This was during the time I lived in a studio apt. this was not a shinning time in my life. Only calling when I needed money or food, but not to just talk and see how life was treating them or how Grandpa was...They were always there to listen to my troubles and woes and never scolded or put me down.

I started to remember this time when Liamarie sent a e-mail after we had a great time in July 2008 when she visited us. We went swimming, to the beach, tide pool searching, and just hung out with her. We all had a great time...that we thought.

I can not paste the e-mail as she has deleted her myspace profile and the e-mail is gone...basicly she requested that we stay out of her life so she can figture out stuff and finish school. So we have and we will. This does not make us happy please we Love you....John is sad and cries somtimes hoping she is okay. all we want is for her to be a strong and self supportive person. So we go on with our family life growing together and hoping for Liamarie to figture out that she has a part in out family life.

Life is a growing process; Family life takes compromise.
Rachel Pack

Day One - Feeling Good!

Focused and on track
Today is the day 1 - Getting fit and health again! Eating right & keeping a regular exercise program.

I just turned 36 yesterday and I am not happy with the way I have let myself get out of shape. I know I should not be "show" ready, but I should look and feel good naked or in a swimsuit. Today I do not look the way I feel I should, So I make a commitment to myself that I want to drop 20 pounds and tone up. So I feel good in and out of clothes.

Friendship

Wikipedia states that Friendship is a term used to denote co-operative and supportive behavior between two or more beings. In this sense, the term connotes a relationship which involves mutual knowledge, esteem, and affection along with a degree of rendering service to friends in times of need or crisis. Friends will welcome each others company and exhibit loyalty towards each other, often to the point of altruism. Their tastes will usually be similar and may converge, and they will share enjoyable activities. They will also engage in mutually helping behavior, such as exchange of advice and the sharing of hardship. A friend is someone who may often demonstrate reciprocating and reflective behaviors.

I agree - I have always said that a friend is there to support and care, not to demand or criticize. I have only a few friend and I can count them on one hand; John (my sole mate), Monste Khory, Paco & Robin. there are other poeple that are close and a friends but they are not those that I would call if I have a problem I needed help with.

A Friend is always there for you even when they do not want to be...ansering phone call at all hours of the night, telling you the truth when no one esle will; friendship is not smoething I give a way friendship is a process that grows into a great thing.

Friends once you find them some time you can never get rid of them.

Time passes so fast...

Time passes so fast that It is not almost my B-day again! Sept. 21, 2008 I will be 36; it is not that is will be any other year older just that the time has gone so fast.

We now have our home in San Felipe "the tire house" and we are very happy to be living here. My Mom and Dad's house is finished in PDO where they are vacationing for a week. They should be here full time in late January 2009. Mom & Jim and ahppy and ever adding to there fabulous home in Fresno. John is a wonderful husband that cares and loves me every day, with a mind of an 18 year old. Troy is doing really well and serious with Shurice his girlfriend for a year or so. Liamarie is just not happy - working through trying to find out who she is and how Liamarie fits in the world. She is not sure how or what she is and does not have the best supportive surroundings and with us far away we can not make is worse or better.

My year has been good but I have not done all I need to do to make me a better person. I have a tendancey to make sure other and healthy and happy before I myself am sold and good with me.

I am going to start a new thing for me...I am going to set goals to build a better me. Like when New Years Eve rolls around; I am going to better myself and then in return it will better my life and thoses in it.

Goals:
1. No more procurastination
2. Stay healthy by work out at least 5 days aweek and eating clean
3. staying contact with those that I love. E-mail and / or call once a week with or with out a reply. The e-mails will be about what is going on in our life and openning the door to hear how they are doing.